we have this test in school…
Posted on January 18, 2012
and i don’t know what to do. i’m not able to write that text. i’m worrying sick over my grades. i’m worrying sick over EVERYTHING. and i need to write the text. i need to get this right. i need to be a good student, like i’ve always been. i need to have some faith in myself. i need to be okay. i just don’t see how i can possibly pull this off. it seems i’m not getting better, even though (i think) i am. and it’s really confusing. i just. dont. know. what. to. do.
i guess i’ll just continue doing what everyone expects of me, even though i’m not able to do it as good as i’ve done before. i’ll finish this test, and i’ll get a C. (or a D. or maybe even a F) i’ll cry when i come home, and i’ll want to die. but i’ll stay. and i’ll probably keep doing what i’ve always kept doing. because it’s the only way i know. and it’s the only way to keep going.
